I'm
the kind of person that always aims to do my job well, I hate mediocrity in
work and I almost always tend to everything I can and utilize all my devices to
perform well.
With that being said, it is never easy for me to hear or read something not very favorable about my work, more so when it is coming from the primary consumer of my outputs which is my boss.
I don't know what's been happening to me this lately, but I admit I somehow relaxed in my duties and in turn a very messy very lousy products. I wasn't able to get any sleep that very night we she said those very exact words to me (through email), I was offended and I wanted to write her back a lengthy email to present excuses why it turned out that way but I thought wisely and realized even before I did just that that it will only be counterproductive and useless.
I did badly, no need to explain and all I need to do is make up for my shortcomings. Before going home that night I made sure that everything and everyone of her instructions were properly executed, all her concerns addressed and everything is ready for the event where the things I prepared are needed. In the end I was able to do it properly but I still feel bad.
I was thinking that if I’d only did it right the first time, she wouldn't have said that at all. Her words are justified, I know given the delicate nature of the task and what it is intended for, so that not what I feel bad for. I feel bad because I felt like I betrayed her trust and confidence in me, I feel bad and ashamed of myself because I wasn't able to do my job and I the fact that I will have to redo it for the third time.
At this very moment, I am looking at the printed copy of her email (I printed it for remembrance and reminder to myself). I saw this phrase that she said which I totally overlooked when I read it the first time, in verbatim it says “I urge you to do better”. I don't why and how but I honestly did not see that when I first received the email, and reading it now it makes me feel somewhat a little bit relieved because of the thought the she doesn't really want just to blame for my fault, but what she truly wants is to encourage me to do better and improve myself.
It is already my work etiquette to be the best that all that there is, but I guess I will have to develop more and commit mistakes less. The quest for perfection is not that easy but it is achievable so I am urging myself to do BETTER and best it every day of my life.
I will sleep comfortably tonight knowing that tomorrow when I wake up and I will be able to start right because I already know what it is that I need to do.
I also urge every one of you to do the same, not for the sake of a higher salary or a promotion, not because of status and fame in your own little pond but for yourself satisfaction and pride in what you do.
With that being said, it is never easy for me to hear or read something not very favorable about my work, more so when it is coming from the primary consumer of my outputs which is my boss.
I don't know what's been happening to me this lately, but I admit I somehow relaxed in my duties and in turn a very messy very lousy products. I wasn't able to get any sleep that very night we she said those very exact words to me (through email), I was offended and I wanted to write her back a lengthy email to present excuses why it turned out that way but I thought wisely and realized even before I did just that that it will only be counterproductive and useless.
I did badly, no need to explain and all I need to do is make up for my shortcomings. Before going home that night I made sure that everything and everyone of her instructions were properly executed, all her concerns addressed and everything is ready for the event where the things I prepared are needed. In the end I was able to do it properly but I still feel bad.
I was thinking that if I’d only did it right the first time, she wouldn't have said that at all. Her words are justified, I know given the delicate nature of the task and what it is intended for, so that not what I feel bad for. I feel bad because I felt like I betrayed her trust and confidence in me, I feel bad and ashamed of myself because I wasn't able to do my job and I the fact that I will have to redo it for the third time.
At this very moment, I am looking at the printed copy of her email (I printed it for remembrance and reminder to myself). I saw this phrase that she said which I totally overlooked when I read it the first time, in verbatim it says “I urge you to do better”. I don't why and how but I honestly did not see that when I first received the email, and reading it now it makes me feel somewhat a little bit relieved because of the thought the she doesn't really want just to blame for my fault, but what she truly wants is to encourage me to do better and improve myself.
It is already my work etiquette to be the best that all that there is, but I guess I will have to develop more and commit mistakes less. The quest for perfection is not that easy but it is achievable so I am urging myself to do BETTER and best it every day of my life.
I will sleep comfortably tonight knowing that tomorrow when I wake up and I will be able to start right because I already know what it is that I need to do.
I also urge every one of you to do the same, not for the sake of a higher salary or a promotion, not because of status and fame in your own little pond but for yourself satisfaction and pride in what you do.
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